Kansas City Here I Come

I am in Kansas City tonight. I am on my first business trip in almost six months. I rode down with my boss, Mitch and then went out to eat with him, a client and my partner in crime, Scot. It was so good to see Laurel after so long. What awesome food and company I had tonight.

I am sitting in a hotel room by myself watching the American Music Awards. How wierd this feels? Joel said he is proud of me because it is one more step in my recovery. I am not sure he would have been so proud when I cried a few minutes ago because I feel so alone. Six months of being around my family, whether at home or in the hospital, makes this feel so incredibly lonely. Jacob was true to form and called right when I needed him to. "Hi mom! Where are you? Did you know I miss you mom?" Do you think he knows my heart is breaking right now? Do you think he knows how much I love him? Do you think he knows that this trip is exactly what I needed to do?

I needed to make a trip without my family by my side. I needed to see Laurel. I need to see my clients tomorrow. I need to have my life get back to normal.

So while I miss my family tonight, I needed to prove to myself that I am a strong woman. I needed to prove to myself that I am still the old Amy.