Does Cancer Ever Really "GO" Away?

I think the answer to this question is a big old fat NO!
I can't believe how much this disease has affected my life. I really can't believe how much this disease has affected my family's lives. Cancer is such an ugly disease that even when it is gone, it still plays havoc on your body, mind and spirit.

I am starting to get my hair back now very quickly. Some of you will be happy to know that I am 99% positive that I didn't lose my curly hair. When it is wet it definitely curls up. I even put some gel in it today. What a feeling that was. Don't get too excited; it is still much to short to be worrying about gel, but it felt good so I did it.

My feet have taken a turn for the worse today and are not working well at all. Someone made a comment about, "Quit milking this cancer thing." Well, screw you. Sometimes I wish that more people would have stayed connected during the ordeal and maybe they would understand that milking it is not what I am doing. I push myself every day to be able to get out of bed and get my feet to move without too much pain. I try not to complain, but I guess if I do and you don't like it, MOVE ON!

I am going to a dear friends 40th work anniversary tonight. Can you imagine working for one company for 40 years? This day and age that is completely unheard of. She has more knowledge in her little finger than most of us will have in our entire body for our working career. She is one of those people you can ask anything and she knows how to fix it. It should be a great time and hopefully I will see some people from out of town that I haven't seen in almost 6 months.

You may have detected I am a little bitter today. (Skip the last paragraph....that makes me happy.) I am disappointed in a few people in my life. A good friend has told me it is not worth getting upset about. I know it isn't, but some days it still hurts. It mostly hurts because I truly felt some people were part of my "extended family" and to constantly hear the negative remarks they made in my absence is discouraging. I think my pride is hurt the worst. It has also reminded me of a very good lesson........never say anything about someone you wouldn't say to their face. If it is too hurtful to say to their face, it isn't worth exiting your mouth.

So today my body is still being affected by cancer. Is there such a thing as a foot transplant? I would love one right now.

Today my mind is affected by cancer. Total chemo brain pretty much ruled my morning until it decided to leave this afternoon.

Today my spirit is affected by cancer. I am down, but not out. It is true what doesn't kill us will make us stronger. It will also make us smarter. While I will always be the same person, I will trust anyone until they give me a reason not to. I just won't keep coming back anymore to keep getting beaten down.

It is a darn good thing that 99% of people are good. That means I won't have to delete many more people off this site. Only the good ones stay......the bad ones can just MOVE ON!